The transformation of me

{September 11, 2012}   You are good enough!

Hello friends,

I know, I know. It has been over a month since my last post. My friend had to ask me when I was going to post again.  Even though she asked I still felt unmotivated to write.  Well after church on Sunday, and after reading one of my friends post yesterday about some of her struggles I decided to post.  Just to let you guys know why I don’t post on a regular basis.  I have issues. There are to many to name right now but I will discuss a few.  One of my major problems is a lack of focus, this is the root of many of my other issues as well. You see, I have many ideas, I am a dreamer, and I have goals. There is so much that I want to do with my life, but because I lack focus there isn’t much that I have accomplished in my 33 years. I have started many new things, only to not finish them.  You see I want so much for myself and my family but because I have failed to finish the things that I have started I am afraid.  Now fear is crippling me and causing me to second guess what God has created me to do. Coming to the realization of this has caused  me to have several emotional break downs, as a matter of fact I have to stop typing every so often so that I can stop crying and regain my composure.  You see I am such a positive and motivating person. I can motivate friends, family and even complete strangers, but I just feel empty most of the time.  I feel like there is only one person that I can truly talk to about my short comings and that is because this person has NEVER made me feel like I was in adequate. Thank you Mom, for never judging and always showing love, you are awesome! I have to get out of this rut, I cannot let this consume me.  Feeling inadequate is one of my other issues.  I think that it stems back to my childhood, wanting the love of my father but never  truly having it because he loved drugs more than anything else in this world.  I loved him as much as any child loves their father but I was never good enough, and as I got older he made sure that I knew it.  I am really digging deep to unearth some deep rooted issues and it hurts SO bad to face the truth, I just can’t stop crying.  Enough with this pity party, I can’t let this send me into a depression.  Dealing with my problems is the first step to fixing them.

Thank you to my pastor who’s sermon this Sunday was ” You are good enough”.  Awesome message and service by the way.  So even though, I am my biggest critic I am determined to change, for my sake, and for my family sake.  I refuse to stay the same.  I know that I am destined to be great and I will be.  I am taking small steps to overcome my issues, and there is a grocery list full of them, but one at a time.  I would love for the world to see me as God made me but I won’t live my life to satisfy others.  

Motivation moment:

Know that you are good enough. You were wonderfully made and there is nothing that anyone can say or do to change that.  You are beautiful, you are smart, you are enough! There is nothing wrong with being you. Get healthy, and be happy with who you are on the inside, and those who truly matter will love that person as well. We can always be better, but do it because that’s what you want for yourself. Remember “you is smart, you is kind, you is important!”





Be beautiful inside and out.


{August 2, 2012}   Zumba and friends!

Good morning all! I know that it has been a while since I have truly written in my blog, but it has been hard breaking thru this funk that I have been going thru over the last couple of months. I mean I was so motivated when I started this blog back in April. I was ready to just push myself to do the best that I could to lose this weight. I can’t even call it baby weight anymore because my baby will be a year old soon and I have yet to make it down to my pre baby weight. I have made some strides, but I am still disappointed in my laziness and lack of motivation. I mean just looking in the mirror should alone should push me to work out daily. Don’t get me wrong, I am not unhappy with myself but I am unhappy with my body. The thing is, I know that I can do it, normally when I have a goal in mind nothing can stop me from accomplishing it but it just seems so much harder to do now. I want to by any means necessary mentality again. I have realized that in the journey I just have to make time for me. I have two beautiful children and great husband, and I try to give them my time and energy. The thing is as I take care of them and their needs, but mine often get over looked. So I have decided to make me a priority! I know that it is going to be hard but I have to do it!

Anyhow, enough of my morning rant. I have a really good friend who has encouraged me to join a Zumba class with her at W.O.W fitness (war on weight). I have done Zumba a few other places and it was cool, but I think that I have found the place for me now. For $20 a month I have access to unlimited Zumba classes 5 days a week, and even though I have only done 2 classes ( which kicked my butt ) I loved every minute of it. The women/owners of the WOW fitness are very encouraging, as well as the participants of the class. The first day I thought I was going to die when I got home, but I felt better after a good night sleep. The second day, wasn’t as bad. I was completely soaked in sweat after the class, so I am looking forward to getting such an awesome workout on a regular basis. So my friend and I are both ex-military and she has been an awesome motivator, I see now she is not going to let me do anything less than 100%. Shout out to Key Fletcher, and thanks to everyone who comment on my posts and offer motivation, it is greatly appreciated! I hope to update you a couple of times a week with my workout progress. Anyone looking for a place to workout, try W.O.W. fitness they even offer free insanity classes twice a week, can beat that!

Motivational moment;

Sometime we mess up and get out of our healthy eating and workout routines, but don’t give up! As long as you have breath in your lungs you can start again. Make today the day you start over. Don’t say Monday I will do better, there is not better day than today to make a change in your life.

Every Accomplishment starts with a Decision to Try.

Another chance. #fitfluential

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Stay motivated!


Good morning people, how is everyone on this motivation monday.  It’s another beautiful day even though it’s kinda overcast outside. I hope that you all had a great weekend, I sure did. Saturday consisted of me running errands all morning and keeping 3 extra kids all afternoon. I love keeping my little cousins, even though they are almost as tall as me, they are still little girls. We had fun, we went to the park and I grilled hot dogs and some chicken we also had some chopped pork, thanks to a coworker .  Fun was had by all.  Anyhow, you see where I said that I grilled hot dogs, well for some reason I was compelled to take a bite out of one of the hot dogs, even though I had chicken.  Well my stomach began to hurt almost immediately( and obviously pork dint agree with me ie pork hot dogs and smoked pork) , I didn’t really think about it much until I went to hang out with my adult cousin later that night.  I had a cocktail while we were having girl time, but by the time I finished it, my stomach was in rare form. I had a horrible case of the BG’s (bubble guts) so I spent most of the evening in the bathroom.  The last time I went into the bathroom, I had an overwhelming feeling to empty my stomach, yes, I threw up everything that I had eaten for the day, it had not digested at all.  It was bad, so I came to this conclusion.  Since I have not eaten processed food/meat, or pork in about a month to 6 weeks, my system had reset its self and that hot dog was a foreign object. Also since I have not had any alcohol lately,  the mixture of the two just didn’t work well for me.  I know now that I can no longer eat processed meat, I really don’t know what came over me, and maybe I should stick to an alcohol free life. The latter part of that sentences makes my mom extremely happy, since she doesn’t understand why I have an occasional  drink  in the first place.

Well with all that being said, I have reached goal number one on my list.  It official, I am below 200 lbs, YAY!  Now, I am sure vomiting everything that I ate on saturday helped out but not by much.  I weighed in at 198 lbs on Sunday morning, and even though I had grilled salmon, a baked sweet potato, a HUGE salad, and half a whole wheat roll for dinner. My weight didn’t move when I got on the scale this morning to make sure I didn’t do any damage.  I made Monday my weigh in day so that I won’t be tempted to get out of control on the weekend.  Anyhow, one goal accomplished and plenty more to go. Yay me!!! All of my hard work is paying off even though I only worked out a couple of days last week. I decided to give my knees a much-needed rest since they were hurting so bad.  Now I am ready to hit the pavement running, so to speak.

Motivation moment:

Anything that you want to do, you can do!  I know that in life/weight loss we seem to bite off more than we can chew, but don’t be discouraged.  When trying to reach your goals take a step by step approach.  First make small attainable goals (short-term). Next make your long-term goals.  Track what you eat for  your first week, at the end of the week you may shock yourself when you see what, and how much you are putting into your body. Set fitness and health goals that are not connected to your weight loss (i.e. running a marathon, completing 25 push ups, getting stronger, being able to walk without getting winded, lowering blood pressure).  After you have set your goals, celebrate when you accomplish each one (not with food), you will probably be the only person excited, but it doesn’t matter celebrate yourself, you deserve it!

Till next time,

Sister Mocha


{April 24, 2012}   Clean, Lean, and Green!

Happy Tuesday peeps! Today is the dreaded day that I have put off for the last two weeks. I said that I would post my weight as well as a before picture of myself so that you could help me track my progress.  Anyway, I don’t have the full body pictures yet but I will get my husband to take them today and I will upload those along with my measurements, UUUhhh, Now the world will no that I am an out of shape lump of clay, but a beautiful one though.  I just wanted to check in with you guys today to leave just a little motivation. First off, I went to Zumba class last night and I love it. I also trained with SD last night and he drove me hard as usual.  I really want to get this balance thing down, so I have started doing Pilates, and I will do it at least 3-4 times a week along with my personal training sessions. This is day 2 of eating Lean, Clean, and Green, and I am loving it! I feel great already and  am sure I will feel even better once my system has been fully reset. I know that I am on an eight week challenge but I want my life to forever be changed because of the choices that I am making today.

Motivation moment:

Don’t allow your mind to defeat you, most of our battles are won or lost in our mind. Just because you didn’t eat well yesterday don’t allow that to throw you off course, reset and be determined to succeed. Decide to make today the day that your life changes for the better, takes small steps to make sure that you accomplish your goals. Find a POSITIVE friend to hold you accountable to what your goals are.  Remember you are strong, poised and beautiful! You CAN handle what the world throws at you, even if it’s a curve ball. Prepare yourself for the battle so that you will never be caught off guard.  YOU CAN DO IT, day by day, step by step!

As always stay encouraged,

Sis Mocha

These are some examples of what I have been eating

Whole grain wraps with egg whites and sautéed zucchini, and squash.

Lettuce wrap with brown rice, black beans, ground turkey, tomatoes, onions.

Brown rice, egg whites with spinach and artichoke, and mixed berries.

Happy Monday folks, it’s another beautiful day. It’s kinda hard sitting here looking out of this huge window at the sunshine, makes me wish  was outside. Anyhoo I really had a kinda lazy weekend when it come to working out, but I still ate well. I didn’t just go crazy! You know the hardest thing about this transformation is that I wonder how well I will do with the limited amount of sleep that I get.  Typically I get about 5 hours nightly,( 7 month old) but how well will my nutrition routine work if I am not getting adequate sleep? Just a thought.

So on Friday I signed up for this beach body challenge through It is awesome because you have access to the Tone it Up girls and the Tone it Up community for motivation, updates, give-a-ways etc..  Now their challenge is for 8 weeks and I am sure it will be difficult because, for one, the challenge you to get up 30 min early at least 4 time a week and fit in a morning workout, and secondly they want you to eat Lean, green, and clean.  Now this proves even more difficult because I am a slave to processed food like chips, diet sodas, juice, etc, but you can’t eat anything that has been chemically processed.  I know that this sounds difficult but I am up for the challenge because I know that with such a drastic change like that in my diet I am sure to see the results that I am looking for.  Now don’t get me wrong when I say that something will be difficult that doesn’t mean that I won’t succeed of try, it just means that I have to put even more of myself into reaching that goal.  I know that joining the Beach Body challenge is what I am supposed to be doing because I received conformation when I went to FB and clicked on a page that I become a fan of (but never checked out). It’s called Black Women do Work Out.  This by far has been the most motivational/inspirational page that I have been to period.  There are all of these beautiful women just like me that are on a journey to better themselves physically, and health wise.  There are women who have lost over a hundred pounds, some who are 50+ but look no older than 30, some who have just started and some who have grafted some of the hottest bodies I have ever seen.  Anyway many of them also talk about the benefits of eating Lean, clean, and green.  So I am pumped.  I plan on posting my progress on their page so that I can be one of the lovely ladies featured there to motivate others.  Let me tell you that you can do it, today is your day to stop making excuses for being overweight. When we were created we were not created FAT, that is not God’s best for you, if it was you wouldn’t have all the medical issues. Just start eating healthy and walking daily and you may be able to get off of your meds one day. Commit to making your life healthy and being happy.

So what do you think readers, is rigorous exercise the only and best way to lose weight or is there something to this no more processed food?  Processed food is: refined sugar, chips, cookies, white bread, soda (yes even diet!), processed meat, anything where chemicals are added to it, no caffeine as well. If you can’t pronounce the names on the labels do eat it.  Anyone interested in joining me on this challenge, I can’t wait to see the results.  I am going to look so good Serena Williams is going to ask me what have I been doing.  P.S. My  body type is similar to her’s and I want my tight and toned just like her’s!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I would definitely need breast implants though, I’m just sayin””….


{April 6, 2012}   Motivation

Good morning all. Another wonderful day outside, sun shinning, birds singing and it’s the weekend baby! I just wanted to post today to give a special thanks to someone special in my life, my husband Vincent Smith.  I am doing this because he deserves it.


My motivation to get healthy!


Yesterday afternoon, he came to me and told me that he was really proud of me and that he could tell that I was truly motivated to become more healthy. He then tells me that he is behind me 100% and that what ever I need from him that he was there to support me.  Now ladies we can all agree that every woman wants to hear her man tell her something like that!  The thing about my man is he puts his money were his mouth is.  I came home from work, I put the baby to sleep then got dressed and left for the gym.  When I came home, all the laundry had been washed, the baby had been fed and was playing with daddy when I came home.  My husband bends over backwards to make sure I have all the help that I need, and I love him for it.  I am so lucky to have a husband that doesn’t mind doing house work.  Anyway, so he tells me that on my workout days he is going to try to make it as easy as possible for me so that I don’t lose my motivation.  He also told me that when I feel like quitting to just come and talk to him and he will get my mind right.  He is just as excited as I am to see what results this journey will produce.  I know that he misses the  pre-baby body that I use to have, and I think that he and I both deserve to see me get back to that place.  I am doing this transformation for my personal health and well-being, but I am also doing it for my husband, we have to take care of our temples (bodies).  Ladies the thing is when we meet our husbands we are a certain way, we can’t let ourselves go because we are “in love” and “happy”.  I strive to try my best to get to a healthy place physically and remain there for myself and most definitely for my husband.  To Vincent, I know that you love me, but in a few months there will be less of me to love, and I can’t wait!

I feel great I had a great workout last night, shout out to (SD) Clarence for pushing me! If you need a good trainer ladies and gentlemen he is the one, just hit me up if you want his info.  Anyway later today me and the hubby will be taking and posting my before pictures and measurements so that we can watch this number change from month to month.  I will only post it monthly, I will not tell you my start weight until I reach my goal, but I will update how much weight and inches I have lost, so here goes nothing.

Until later, Smooches!




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